These are the hands that do the Devil's work

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So last night I had a dream about someone who used to be a huuuuge part of my life. He was always there for me, he took care of me, looked out for me and was just great... For a while. But, as the saying goes, nothing gold can stay. And no I am not talking about Ricky. This person was someone who I thought I trusted more than most, who I thought was bigger and better of a person than I, and I respected him and almost looked up to him. It's a weird feeling to be let down in the way I was with this situation. It's sad, really. But my life is so much better now than it ever could've been with that situation. I just never realized that I missed him until that dream made me realize how nice it was to just be able to hug him and spill my heart out. But it's one of those instances where I know that things will never be like how they were. In which case, I would rather have NO relationship than something that's not as good as it was.

Life is so weird how things can change with the drop of a hat. But progression is good, life is going into a better direction and I have so many opportunities just placed into my lap.

With that said, school is over in less than a month. My sister graduates from Eller, which is crazy. And is going to be going to law school. My best friend is about the move and be with someone for the rest of her life. Growing up is NUTS. I'm sooo thankful that everyone in my life is happy and healthy.

Life is short. I need to make things happen more often and stop hesitating.

OMG, so creeped out hahahahaha.

In other news, San Diego in 2 days with the best. I miss the Florida kids already, we had so much fun. The living room is lonely without 5 bodies to trip over! <3333 It is really just getting me excited for friends to tour out here this summer!!!

Life is actually really good. I should probably pick out a new major soon... Or just continue to take random classes that have nothing to do with eachother.... Yah, I think that idea sounds waaay sweeter.

I have actually been feeling quite great about myself lately. I think that when you realize how much someone else SUCKS and how much better you are than that person (in a non-cocky, non-egotistical way), it makes your flaws seem petty. And it makes me smile :) :)

I never write in here anymore. So:

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Pretty sure blogspot is grown up lj

It's been a long time since an entry... let's see...

Some things are weird right now. I feel weird. I don't know what to do/think.

I am on spring break and it's not that cool. I'm pretty sure it will consist of the gym and me studying even though it's spring break.

I have to make sure my GPA is atleast a 3.0 this semester.

I have to get scholarships so I can study abroad next Spring.

I have to save money for the India trip.

That's life. I miss people and I need a vacation. And I also need a new book.

Life is too crazy.

I want to close my eyes and wake up 2 years from now. I want it to be time to graduate, time to move away, time to start a new beginning!

I have decided that I am going to do Teach for America after graduation, it is such a good program to get into. I am excited.

I wish I could take certain things back... But I can't, and that's life. And that SUCKS. So I am used to it.

Ps I love old episodes of Sex and The City. And I want to get tattooed and go to the Bahamas

Eeeeee I can't believe that in like 7ish hours it is 2009... WTF.

This is so ridiculous. Like honestly I don't think I ever got past 2005. Sometimes I write "01" on my timesheets... So crazy.

Ahhh none the less, I am VERY excited that everyone will be in town tonight. I also am procrastinating showering and etc. And I think I am going to stay the night at my sister's tonight. She is out of town and her house is really close to the Gnarwhal house, so I'd rather not have to go as far

I still can't believe it.

Hopeful outcomes in 2009:

7 weeks in London or 4 weeks in Kazakhstan/kyrgyzstan
New gym membership
Straight A's
Saving money
Ending old grudges
Seeing my friends more
Making new friends
Getting involved in school functions/organizations
Giving up on "boyface" haha


I think this will be a good year. I wish I had time for a nap before next year...

Ready for school to start back up. So nervous and anxious. Finally know what I want to do with my life. Christmas was awesome. I miss certain people a lot. There was a 7th night of Hannukkah miracle.. Thank god. I need a second job. He is soooooooooooooo dumb. But cute. Trying to get to London or Kazakhstan this summer. Let's hang out.


That's my update.

Banecation was awesome, per usual. The 2nd night of the chain was by far the best. I'm so glad Rhian was there!

Like every vacation, I came home with the flu, but eh whatever.

I GOT INTO THE U OF A!

Right now, life is great. Except for the fact that I need a new job.

Sometimes you just need those little things.

And sometimes you really just don't get them.

Stupid life, sometimes.

Bane 4 nights this week.

So over shittiness. Especially from people who are supposed to be my good friends. It just shows how much you really mean to someone if they are willing to give up a good friendship to date a douche. I would just like to say that no matter WHO I date, I am still just as antisocial as I am when I am single, hahaha.

Whatever. I miss living with Mary :( And the bebeeees. And dinners with Lisa. And Emma biting my shoes and Sadie knocking me over. I miss going to a real school and not Pima Community HIGH SCHOOL. I miss going to Lisa and John's for poker night! I miss Urban. I love Tucson but I really miss Phoenix. I think it's this time of year.

I should be so happy, I get to see Bane 4 nights this week, but I just can't stop thinking about how shitty people can be and call themselves my "friend". I guess I'm still really fucking excited. I love Bane and Banecations.

Cali will be good to get my mind off of things. And take a break from stupid work.

Life is crazy. I just want to get into the U of A and take fun classes... :( Obviously I am whiny right now. Monster Squad is still an awesome movie.



No matter how much I say that I've learned life's lessons,
the only way to ever really know life's lessons
is when it smacks you right in the face
(life smacks you in the face)
Rubberband stretched to the limit,
but still I cannot help but pull it just a little bit more.
Once again my whole world crumbles, walls cave in, i fall backwards.
Everything I know taken out at the knee.
Hands stuffed deep into my mouth
to keep from choking on the words that show
how much i know about knowing nothing at all
(I dont know anything at all)
I know that these days will have an end just like i know
that I'll be back again.
This place is awful, but its familiar.

Life is getting so crazy!! Not for me, but just in general hahahaha. My life is actually getting significantly more boring (by choice)

BUT I DID GET LOST ON BASE TODAY AND FUCK THAT AND MISSED MY CLASS BECAUSE I WAS SO LOST. DUMB DUMB DUMB

It's almost Halloweeeeeen!

Phoenix on Thursday for blacklisted, next thursday for bouncing souls and the thursday after that for BANE and H2O!!!! And then banecation will commence

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Last night was ridiculous... RIDICULOUS. But partially awesome... ;)


And ps, terror NEVER gets old. But I hate metal tours.


BANECATION NOV 08 is in full effect, so stoked. OH and we got a grill for the house, yayayayay for freeeeeee!!

I'm SO fucking sick of people pretending to be someone they're not. And I'm SO fucking sick of believing them. Fuck being nice, anymore.


I need a vacation

I start at the U in January. Nervous? Yes. Especially considering I have to start taking my middle eastern language (Persian). And those are considered "intense" languages and are worth 5 freakin credits a semester. I have to finish my gen eds and try and get my BA in a completely different major than what I've been working for in 2 and a half years. Life's gonna be so crazy but I think I can pull it off.

I really need a new or second job because the ARC is not cutting it anymore. One of the worst bosses I've ever had in my entire life. Hours getting cut for no reason, being made cry almost every day I go into work, short staffed, dead rotation... Not really that into it. Gonna be honest. But whatever.

I miss everyone and plan on making a phoenix trip sometime soon hopefully <33

So excited for the u of a. I met the ladies from my department today... They're so awesome and helpful and wonderful!! Hopefully I will graduate on time still... Fucking switching majors!!

Cross your fingers for me... Internships and summers abroad, please!!!

I played with a cute pug puppy today, I want her! And I only worked for 3 hours!

BASICALLY, I had a really good day!


I hope everyone's well, I miss phoenix <33

Still Alive.


Life's weird and crazy. U of A next semester!

I think my work is a plague virus eating me!!!! Seriously, everyday I come home I just want to sleep. Even if I exercise I still come home and just fall asleep. And then the worst thing is that I wake up and feel like absolute SHIT. And feel sick. It fucking sucks. And like 3 other people I've talked to at work said the saaaaame thing!!!!!

Thank god it's the weekend... I may come up to Phoenix tomorrow. We will see :)

Ugh work.

I need roommates!

Fucking done trying.

Starting to notice a pattern... Definitely. Annnnnoying.

Anyways, I miss everyone. I kinda decided to not hang out anymore, sorry.


<3 love you all still

BLAAAAAAAAH......


Repetitive much?